The past four years of my life have been interesting (if I can use that word). I have somewhat actively engaged in my life by living a sort of melancholy, lazy, unmotivated existence. Over these few years, my zeal and zest for life has waned, been temporarily rejuvenated and then swooned. During this time, I have considered quitting school, having a baby, getting married and most recently packing everything I own, selling it and moving somewhere–well anywhere. So this blog is my attempt to inject some passion into my life, field some ideas for the next step of my life and be alive. What is happening to me? Well some people call it a quarterlife crisis. I have embraced the idea that that may possibly be my diagnosis but I think I have burnt out on living life by other people;s definitions and expectations. I am ready to live life the way I have always dreamed–happily without regrets and hesitation and too much concern for the next twenty years.
I have always been the ever planful, meticulous girl with amazing drive and sharp focus. As I watched myself become the girl who doesn’t really care, apologizes for not meeting the deadlines and would rather stay at home and watch the phone ring, I realized that I cannot continue to exist in this way. I have also been reminded that my true desires are to travel, read, write and sing. I love self-expression, learning new things and exploring new cultures. I am never stationary. Music resides in my bones. Words dance in my head. Laughter is my favorite thing. Although I have resolved to stick out the next year of graduate school, I am also resolved to:
- Dream in the technicolor I have inside
- Do all the things I have on my 30 before 30 list, the things that make me smile and take my breath away and
- Live like the world is my well-built, sexy, dance partner beckoning me to the dance floor.
Won’t you join me on this journey?
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